My new profession? Web MD

I swear, I have been sick for a month. It's getting to be annoying as hell.

After consulting various Internet sites, I am diagnosing myself with Mono. Why don't I just go to the DR? Because it's a long drive and I already have daily Med board appointments with my husband, so the last thing I feel like doing is going to another one. Especially if it's Mono, since they cant treat it since it's a virus.

It's bullshit.

I find myself with small bursts of energy and then ready to collapse. I was ready to sleep at 6pm tonight, and now that's it's midnight, I am wide awake.

I need more friends on the west coast, so that I can call them when everyone else is sleeping.

I watched a show on MSNBC about 2012 theories last night. While I think most people are insane, I can't shake the feeling that I should be building an underground bunker, just in case. But with a pricetag of $10k per person, the sad fact is that if the shit hits the fan, us non-millionaires will bite it.

Just a random, midnight thought. I guess it's not the beat time to blog!

I am so ready to move back to PA next year. It will be wonderful to have good friends and family closeby, especially with all the babies sprouting up like cabbage patch kids. So many people still adding to their families or just starting them in their 30s, while mine become teenagers. It's an epidemic. And pregnant people like to recruit you to their cause.

I find babies cute, but I like sleep more. I served my time dealing with a good 6 years of no sleep, and am not anxious to relive those days. Motherhood is hard. Now the bullets I have to dodge are teenage pregnancy and drugs. I do laugh, though, when the first time mothers tell me they are using cloth diapers, going to try labor with no epidural and do it on their own. Some things just can't be explained. You have to live and learn. I learn something new about my kids every day...somethings that I dont want to know! But glad they will talk to me.

It's going to be an interesting year ahead...full of rebirth and new starts.