Monday, September 5, 2011 the end neigh?

I love end of the world scenarios. I can't help it. Even when I watch real life stuff on tv, I secretly want to see it as bad as it gets. Like I'm watching a movie.

Then I feel guilty because I know it's really real and it's hurting people. How desensitized does tv make us?!

I think the end of life as we know it is coming. It's really just a matter of time and how. I hope, like Steve Buscemi in Armageddon, that I have a good seat for the action. My only request is that I don't drown and I die quickly. I am resigned to the fact that I will most likely be a survivor and see everyone I know perish. Why? Because God likes to fuck with me, that's why.

I'm okay with that on a grand scale. I don't question my faith, mores just ask "really? You couldn't find someone else?" but I get it. If I were God, I would be curious to see how much one person can take before they collapse. It's like a scientific experiment.

But it sucks nonetheless.

I also know that there is a reason for everything. I don't believe things are just random. There are too many ironies for that to be the case. It comforts me when things go awry.

1 comment:

  1. I have to say that I also love watching life-threatening situations.. One of my favorite shows is - I SURVIVED, but I also enjoy movies like BURIED, and of course any that deal with end of times, or even ZOMBIES! LMAO :) My husband think I'm strange because I like these types of shows, but personally, if I am ever in a situation like one of the many i've watched - I should have an idea on how someone else survived, so I tell myself that I am just preparing for a catastrophic event in my own life! At least then I should be better prepared!!

    and yes - this is your sister! Hehe