I love end of the world scenarios. I can't help it. Even when I watch real life stuff on tv, I secretly want to see it as bad as it gets. Like I'm watching a movie.
Then I feel guilty because I know it's really real and it's hurting people. How desensitized does tv make us?!
I think the end of life as we know it is coming. It's really just a matter of time and how. I hope, like Steve Buscemi in Armageddon, that I have a good seat for the action. My only request is that I don't drown and I die quickly. I am resigned to the fact that I will most likely be a survivor and see everyone I know perish. Why? Because God likes to fuck with me, that's why.
I'm okay with that on a grand scale. I don't question my faith, mores just ask "really? You couldn't find someone else?" but I get it. If I were God, I would be curious to see how much one person can take before they collapse. It's like a scientific experiment.
But it sucks nonetheless.
I also know that there is a reason for everything. I don't believe things are just random. There are too many ironies for that to be the case. It comforts me when things go awry.