Tuesday, May 17, 2011

In response to some of my comments...

Just want everyone to know that I am definitely the "real me" right now. A completed unadulterated me. Its freeing. It makes me feel good. I have nothing to lose. That puts me in a power position, and it IS empowering. I know so many women who feel lost and weak in this situation. I was afraid I would be like that too, but somehow, I have been the complete opposite. I lost a part of me, but I gained back part of the "me" that motherhood and marriage take away. I know you women understand what I am talking about. I have that back!!! That part is WONDERFUL. I am not afraid anymore. I am not afraid of the worst possible thing I can imagine happening to me because it happened and I survived. There is a strength in that that words cannot express or explain.

I SHOULD be a crying mess right now. But I am not. I laugh every day at something. Many things. I laugh at the irony of my situation. Because it's funny. And it IS ironic. And it's mindboggling and confusing.

Whether or not I stay married to him isn't my top priority right now. I have plenty of time to leave him. Right now is about learning about myself. Right now, I am being selfish. I definitely feel my anger (wrath is a more appropriate term) but I am not acting destructively with it because that would just NOT be good for anyone. lol.

What I do in the future has so little to do with him, and so much more do with me. Regardless of his actions, HE is still the same person. I have a lot more introspection to do to decide what I really want from my life. I have big choices to make. But I am not doing any of that now, because with time comes clarity. There are things that I don't see right now, and I know that. So I am preparing for any scenario and waiting until I can make the right choices.

My motivation for putting this out on the web for people I don't know is that I am a survival story. If I can do this, then so can you. And not just facing infidelity...but facing life. Because LIFE SUCKS SOMETIMES. PAIN IS PAIN. And we will ALL face situations in our life that we don't know how we will ever breathe again. But you can. And you will. I am. Find the worth in yourself to make the choices that are best for you and make you happy. Because you have something special to offer the world. Everyone does. And no world would be better without you in it because you are different in many ways than anyone else and you are going to do something that changes the course of SOMEONE's history. Maybe it's your children, maybe its something you have left to do. But your life is powerful and significant, even when you feel like you are small. Don't ever forget that.
Posted by Unknown at 10:28 AM

13 comments:

  1. MeMay 17, 2011 at 10:45 AM

    Good for you girl!!

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  2. Melissa610May 17, 2011 at 10:59 AM

    My dear Keri, I cannot tell you how proud I am of you! Your strength and reason in dealing with all this is wonderful to see. I've always known this woman. I'm glad the rest of the world is getting to, as well.

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  3. AlyssaMay 17, 2011 at 11:14 AM

    You are so inspiring! I admire you for your strengh and willingness to share your story.

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  4. UnknownMay 17, 2011 at 1:29 PM

    Stay strong girl, we are rooting you on to victory.

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  5. That Uncomfortable ItchMay 17, 2011 at 1:43 PM

    Right on! Your attitude is spot on and super healthy!

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  6. MinkaMay 17, 2011 at 1:53 PM

    Well my newest post made you laugh, and your newest post got me both misty-eyed and proud and wanting to share a beer with you and toast to your coolness and courage under fire. You are a big inspiration, and kudos to you for sharing your success and triumph.

    It is such a sad state of affairs when we forget that we can actually exist without a man/lover/partner. That we can be independent and still be happy. That independence can be freeing and awesome and a great way to remember why we're so awesome and unique and desirable.

    Wish I had more time to say more articulate things in your honor, but my six year old is hovering and playing with everything on my desk and on the verge of having a meltdown...

    I am so glad you are back to your true self. Cause your true self is ass-kickingly great.

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  7. JillMay 17, 2011 at 2:46 PM

    Very well said - kudos to you Keri.

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  8. tzMay 17, 2011 at 3:07 PM

    wow, this is so very sad. I'm really sorry that anyone would have to go through this at all. I do hope that once the dust settles, you are able to make decisions about your life that will be good for you (I won't even pretend to know what those are...I probably couldn't even figure it out for myself) As for the mean comments you spoke of in your other post...that's just horrible, people need to get a life! Good luck to you.

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  9. shellyMay 17, 2011 at 4:59 PM

    Applause, applause!

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  10. Barbara PilcherMay 18, 2011 at 5:06 AM

    Thank you for writing such inspiring, intelligent posts. We are learning from you. Please know that you have a huge cheering section behind you, whatever choices you make. I think you are doing everything right.

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  11. UnknownMay 18, 2011 at 7:46 AM

    You are AMAZING! Life maybe kicking you but you are doing wonderful to wait it out and make the best decisions. One smart cookie!

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  12. ladydazyMay 18, 2011 at 2:37 PM

    :) You are strong. :)

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  13. Katherines CornerMay 20, 2011 at 10:14 AM

    Attitude is everything, you are strong!Happy Friday. I hope you have a lovely weekend. Please stop by my blog I'm having a great giveaway. Hugs!

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